Fire and Ice

Family??

Well, I'm still living with the Jacksons. It gets pretty crazy sometimes, but it has good times too. The past few days Kross and Kobie have hardly fought at all! It's been great. (These two try their best to kill each other sometimes.) I really think they're getting better. Or maybe just scared they're going to get spanked, I don't know. Kaylee can climb out of her bed now, which I hate! The first few times she did it was awful, she wouldn't go to bed until 12 or later. She got better for awhile, but she's back to her old ways again. Sometimes I give up and let her sleep with me, which is bad I know, but I get really tired of getting up and putting her back in her bed over and over again. She knows how to get me to give in too. She'll crawl up in my bed and kiss me and say "Love you Insy." (She's changed my name to Lindsay, she refuses to call me Candice.) This past week we found out all of us have scabies! It's awful, I hope you all never get it. It itches worse than the chicken pox! We've all taken the treatment for it and cleaned everything, but it still itches really bad. The doctor said it's normal to itch a few weeks after the treatment, but he also said it's really hard to get rid of. Hopefully it goes away and we all stop itching soon! Jackie broke up with her boyfriend, Alan, this week and she's having a really hard time with it. I'm happy, the guy was a jerk and I didn't like him. He already has a new girlfriend. She woke me up at 2 this morning to tell me that and to lay in my bed and cry. I have never seen anyone cry so much. She cried to 20 hours straight the other day!! She's going to start therapy on Monday, so hopefully that will help her. Ha, I might need therapy too...
Just to make this part a little less confusing... "Mom" is my grandmother who raised me, "Real mom" is my birth mom who I haven't seen since I was a baby. I was playing around on the computer earlier and decided to check myspace, and I had a message from my sister on there!! I never really knew her and I haven't seen her since I was little. It's weird even calling her my sister. I thought it was a joke at first, I had gotten a message from a girl on there before that thought I might be her sister. But I read it and she knew my moms name and my real moms name and my other sisters! I was shocked! I got sweaty and shakey when I was reading it. She said she went and visited my mom yesterday and my mom didn't even tell me! Louisa (this sister person) said that my real mom has been really sick for 20 years now and that her and Christina (my younger sister) would like to see me. She said they would come to where ever I am if that's what it took to see me. She gave me her phone number and email address but I don't really know if I want to meet them or even talk to them. They knew where I lived my whole life and never tried to contact me then, but then again it might be kind of nice to have explainations about things. This whole thing is just really weird. I always wondered about my real mom when I was younger and I thought it would be fun to have sisters, but now that I actually have a chance it doesn't sound like such a good idea anymore. I guess I'll just think about it and maybe email her later. I don't know if I'll ever actually call her or meet her.

Subway Man and the Divorce

Since I've started working at the daycare I've been eating Subway a lot. I used to go there a little too much when I was in school and the man that works there knew what I ordered. Well, I hadn't been there since then and I just recently started going back. The first time I went back the little man remembered what I ordered back then! He asked me about Lambuth and how my kids were. (For some reason this guy thinks I have a kid even though I have told him a million times I don't) Everytime I go in there he asks me how my kid is. Sometimes it's a girl and sometimes a boy. I've started ordering different things than I used to and it's been throwing him off. He used to not even ask me what I wanted, he would just start making it. Today I ordered three cookies for some people at work and he was shocked. He said "Oh my, Subway diet no work for you with three cookies! You get fat! You very pretty but no with three cookies!" It was pretty funny. There are some pretty funny quotes from him I was going to put on here but now that I'm writing this I can't remember them. Oh well. I know you're all disappointed.

Lindsay and I got divorced over the weekend. She moved out of the crazy house and into a nice quiet apartment. I'm sure she's a lot happier now. It's only been a day here by myself but it's pretty weird. My rooms really empty and I sleep in a cage now. Lindsay left the bunk beds but took her mattress so I just have springs over my head. Kobie was really concerned about her last night. He came back from his dads house and asked where Ms. Win was. I told him she moved out and here's our conversation after that...
K-Yep,she's movin to Africa. Someone's gonna steal her house and she won't have no place to live!
C- She won't have her house while she's in Africa, someone else will live there.
K-But she ain't gonna have no place to live in Africa! There ain't no houses there!
C- Yes there are.
K-Nope and there ain't no food either. She's gonna die!!
C-I promise she will have a place to live and food to eat.
K- They have food there?! Do they have hot dogs?
C- No.
K-I'm never goin there.

Kobie and Poop

If you've read Lindsay's blog lately, you probably know Kobie has got a few poop issues. Well, the other day Lindsay and I were hanging out with Kobie in his room and we (well, I) got a big wiff of poop. We figured it had to be Kobie since Kaylee wasn't in there so we asked him if he had pooped in his pull up. He went to the bathroom to check and found a little poop on his bottom. He wiped and wiped but couldn't seem to get it of his bottom so Lindsay and I went in to help. We didn't want to do it for him so we were directing him where to wipe. We told him to wipe under his butt cheeks but he swore he didn't have any of those. He wiped for a long time and was still having a hard time getting it all. The more we wiped the more poop he found. After watching Kobie wipe his butt for several minutes, I left to go do something. When I came back Kobie was still wiping and Lindsay was wiping her butt too, trying to show Kobie where the poop was. It was hilarious.Hopefully the next story I write won't be about poop. I'm sure you're all a little tired of Kobie and poop. I know I am.

I finally have internet again!

Hey guys! I'm all moved in with Jackie and the kids and so far things are going great. I'm pretty busy, but it's ok. There's always something interesting going on. I'll write more about all that junk later. I was looking at some old emails and found this email Larry sent me that I thought you all would like to read (that haven't read it already). I thought it was pretty hilarious but he was dead serious when he wrote it.



I will attempt to answer your question of 'how do I know that I love you?'

Before I begin to state my conclusion and premises I must get the reader (which is you) to understand the nature in which i will be using some of my terms in my proposition. By doing so I hope the you will be better able to understand and grasp the concepts behind my agruement. I perceive love to be define as feelings, actions, or words that connect two individuals in a relarionship that goes deeper to the spirit of a person. A lot of evidence when dealing with love can be understood only when one understands that faith is the backbone of love. Yes, One could agrue that faith presents know hardcore evidence, but the manifesties the beauty love because there is no obligation just the faith that this is what is right. That why love should be a cherihed term because there is so must invested in that word. Love starts in our hearts and then it manifesties in our interactions, thus love in actions, and in words are not merely as great as the 'love' that has genernated the 'hardcore evidence' love. So the physical proof of love does not have that great of a impact on this case because it is not what i say or do, but in turn seed of true love that bloomed. Because this seed of love is rare and we only invest in certain relationships; now the love christ should be what "flower pot" of our relationships and what we water our relationships with. That is the greatest love, which is the love of Christ but when discussing love it is like ogranges there tangerines and grapefruits the author my clarifiity what nature he is using the word love.Some in my conclusion It is not about how much i love you but the faith you put into knowing that I love you. Words and actions can never express how the heart feels, but that can give us a peek or glimpse of something that is beautiful deeper within. As years go on we will begin to see that deep within with out love hindsight. Because when i say love you i plainly saying that i have faith in your love and you should have the same! Now where our lives will take us....only HIM who greater than knows. So, let enjoy the friendship!
Hey thhis is only a rough draft but tell if this doesnt answer your question. Ok, love ya!

larry

Catch Up

It's been forever since I wrote last so I thought I should catch y'all up on things. Lindsay and I went camping a few weeks ago. What an adventure! This guy decided he really really liked us. He came over to our campsite and wanted to hang out with us but then he wanted to hook up and then he wanted me to move in with him! He was crazy! Lindsay and I locked ourselves in our tent before we went to sleep so he couldn't come get us. At least I didn't catch on fire this time. :) Not much really happened between then and graduation I guess. Nothing worth remembering at least. I graduated! Yay! Finally!! I don't know what I'm doing now but at least I'm out of Lambuth! Graduation went well and Larry met my mom! That went better than I expected. She was nice to him and everything so it was good. She still thinks that it's wrong for us to be together and that he's going to kill me someday, but she said that he was a very nice young man. That's pretty good for my mom. I talked to his mom that weekend too. She was a little scary but I guess it went ok. I don't think she likes me very much. She kept talking about how quiet and uncheerful I was. I got a job lined up for the summer at a daycare but I'm hoping for a different one that's supposed to be calling me back. Until then I'm just babysitting and still working at the church. Next week Larry and I are going to California to visit his brother. That should be interesting. They're taking me to a club! If I come back alive, I'll write about our trip when I get back.

Just so you know...

I know I already wrote today, but I just wanted you guys in other countries to know of all the great news you're missing out on. We were at the Chow Wagon today and CNN was on and we kept hearing all these ridiculous stories. There is a murderer demanding a sex change, a model sueing Victoria's Secret for getting cut with underwire, and some babies saying Obama and not Hilary. Oh yeah, and on Oprah the other day the was a guy (used to be/still is a woman) who is pregnant. He wanted to carry the baby for his wife. Don't you miss it here?